Waiting just for YOU...

What would i do
if i lost you?
would i bow my head and cry
or take the walk of pride

questions and questions
piled up on me
what would i do
if i lost you?

things wouldn't be the same
as i look down in shame
you are my love
my life

oh what would i do
if i ever lost you?
you are my sunshine in the morning
i wouldn't want to mourn you

so please don't ever leave
stay by my side
cuz what would i do
if i lost you?

What am I doing here? Where have I come from? Where do I have to go? I seee no one by my side, I see no one when I look behind. Every road is saying NO to me, the word "destination" is out of my life`s dictionary, GOD, witnessing this moment is the worst you could for me, why do you always reward me with the things I don`t want, why do you never care for my heart and its desires, I have long forgotten about the things that I don`t deserve but I have done at least enough for what I really want or is it just a game for you? well, this game has been one sided for very long now, I request you to leave the thought of winning every time. Don`t take away what I have or else take me away first. ...........

I know its hard to believe
Your still the biggest part of me All I'm living for
I still think about you
I still dream about you
I still want you
And need you by my side
I'm still mad about you
All I ever wanted was you
Your still the one on my lonely mind ♥ ♥

The gaps between my fingers have been vacant for too long now, its been too long since I saw the eyes that could show the real ME, I have also forgotten what its like to be me. I don`t see the light any more, just a dark road leading to a limbo, this emptyness is eating me away. You have never been kind to me, but I will be, by telling you the only possible answer that might keep me going......