Waiting just for YOU...

What would i do
if i lost you?
would i bow my head and cry
or take the walk of pride

questions and questions
piled up on me
what would i do
if i lost you?

things wouldn't be the same
as i look down in shame
you are my love
my life

oh what would i do
if i ever lost you?
you are my sunshine in the morning
i wouldn't want to mourn you

so please don't ever leave
stay by my side
cuz what would i do
if i lost you?

What am I doing here? Where have I come from? Where do I have to go? I seee no one by my side, I see no one when I look behind. Every road is saying NO to me, the word "destination" is out of my life`s dictionary, GOD, witnessing this moment is the worst you could for me, why do you always reward me with the things I don`t want, why do you never care for my heart and its desires, I have long forgotten about the things that I don`t deserve but I have done at least enough for what I really want or is it just a game for you? well, this game has been one sided for very long now, I request you to leave the thought of winning every time. Don`t take away what I have or else take me away first. ...........

I know its hard to believe
Your still the biggest part of me All I'm living for
I still think about you
I still dream about you
I still want you
And need you by my side
I'm still mad about you
All I ever wanted was you
Your still the one on my lonely mind ♥ ♥

The gaps between my fingers have been vacant for too long now, its been too long since I saw the eyes that could show the real ME, I have also forgotten what its like to be me. I don`t see the light any more, just a dark road leading to a limbo, this emptyness is eating me away. You have never been kind to me, but I will be, by telling you the only possible answer that might keep me going......

Because My Love 4 U Is So True, So Unconditional...!!!

Because My Love 4 U Is So True, So Unconditional...!!!


I never force you to love me,

I never flirt with someone to make you angry,

I never warn you to do not speak with others,

... I never say don't do the thing you want,

You are like a bird for me, free to fly away anywhere you want to

go,

Only thing you must to know wherever you go or whatever you do,

When you decide to come back & feel you need me..... ♥

Just remember... !!!

I'm always here for you to give you Oceans of Love,

BECAUSE MY LOVE 4 YOU IS SO UNCONDITIONAL, SO TRUE♥♥ !

Sometimes when I m thinking about u
my eyes gets filled with tears:'(
but then suddenly ur another memory
touches my heart and I start smiling with
teary eyes.....:)

I TOO...

If tomorrow I die & don't get a chance again to say how much I Love You..
Just always Remember, that Once I was Yours & Once You were Mine...

♥ I believe You were made especially for Me, but wonder if that could possibly be.. I'm tired of ...being so Alone and Blue...But I always smile when thinking of You !! ♥

Its never Late Until d Last Breath and I know U would b Back by then.. I LOVE YOU Till The End..!!♥♥

Don't Know What To Say.....

These lines are Excerpt from the book "An Idiot, Placements And IntervYOU" authored by Toffee. but they truly expresses what I feel...

 I was sitting on a bench alongside the Lake, all alone, sipping vodka and watching the beautiful sky full of stars without the moon. One more tear drop rolled down my cheek and a few more followed, but this time, I did not bother to wipe my tears. Just like so many beautiful stars in the sky, there are so many beautiful girls in this world, but there is only one moon and only one love. The moment was perfect. The moon was missing, and so was the girl of my life. 


I gulped down one more sip of vodka mixed with Sprite in a 500 ml pet bottle. Call it the ‘vodka effect’ or call it love, I could see her pretty face, with a beautiful smile and a cute dimple, in the dark sky full of twinkling stars. God, her dimple was so cute. Given a chance to kiss, I think I would kiss her dimple first and then her lips. 

There she was, amongst the stars, smiling all the way and I was kind of dying. When I had met her for the first time, I never thought even in my wildest dreams that I would fall in love with her. Neither she nor I know how we became friends, and then good friends, and then best friends. But now we are just strangers to each other, as if we never ever met, and will probably remain like that forever and ever. It’s so amazing how it all begins with a simple ‘hi’ and then the sweet little conversations slowly change your life forever. Not only did I lose my girl, but I also lost my best friend. Sometimes, I wish I had never proposed to her and remained her best friend for life.

         
She was, in the beautiful sky, still smiling and I was perplexed, helplessly looking at her enigmatic smile. Just like a dream that comes at night, she came into my life, and when I woke up, she was nowhere in my sight.

          
A police van with the usual irritating horn whizzed past and I came back to this world. I then searched for her in the sky, but in vain. Took one more sip of vodka, this time a little bigger one, but again, I couldn’t find her. She had left me, all alone, all over again.  

          
I stared at the beautiful gold ring that I was holding in my hand, for the infinite’th time I guess. It was heart shaped, with three stones embedded inside the heart. I had dreamt so many times of putting the ring on her finger and saying those three magical words - I love you. But I think few dreams are destined to remain only dreams.

Though my idiotic brain tells my stupid heart that there isn’t any hope of fulfilling this dream in this lifetime, somewhere in some corner of my silly heart, there is still a little hope flickering like a candle light in strong wind and at the same time dwindling like a melting snowflake.

          
The problem with losing your first love is that you can never get over it, no matter what. You meet a million pretty girls/handsome guys, you can easily flirt with many, and you can even make many of them fall for you, but still you won’t be able to love them. All that you’ll ever want is the one you love, and anything and everything other than that can’t give even half as much happiness as you get in just being with that special person you love.

          
You behave normally with people around you, laugh at all stupid jokes, enjoy hanging out with friends, and you earn money, good job, respect and what not. You get everything in life, and slowly, you even get along with your life. But deep down inside, somewhere in some corner of this brainless heart, the feeling of the one you love the most not being with you kills. Without the girl I love, every damn thing in my life sucks and all that I am doing is watching my life suck deeper and deeper and deeper…

Dear Girls.
Even If you plan to leave your guy, or you dump him, or betray him, please make sure you don't break his heart and him to the level that he never dares to fall in love again. Because you would get along with someone very soon but he would keep waiting for you all his life and end up being very lonely and shattered.

Sincerely.
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